I feel like I was cheated out of Christmas with various things that have gone on here since Friday. First was the drive failure and since then the reinstallations of everything I could find to reinstall. There's the nagging realization that there are useful programs that I'm never going to have again. I know I'm going to be much more careful about saving installation disks after this.
On Christmas Eve the upstairs toilet moved an inch across the floor and compromised the wax seal. We haven't been able to use it since. Hopefully it'll be fixed today.
The card reader I got Dee for the digital camera I got her for Christmas simply refused to install.
I had a little oil accident, on a rug no less, with a heavy duty power tool that Dee got me.
This morning, our phones started dialing a weird number any time we took one off hook. No dial tone - just the automatic dialing of some number.
It's been a steady barrage of troublesome things each just compounding the others, and when all is said and done I'm going to need a good cry. Seriously.
With the drive failure I've almost been rethinking my self identity. For over ten years I've more or less made too much of my life revolve around this computer and the things I do on it. It's where I am when I'm not tending to things that I need to do. I've allowed my computer to become an extension of my very self. Maybe I've even made myself an extension of IT.
I'm seeming to think that I spend too much of my life here. That I rely on this box of rushing electrons too damned much.
It's not a tool. It's like something that has taken on a life of its own - and the life that it has it sucks from me like some kind of electronic leech.
I don't know how to balance myself any more. I don't know how to live my life without a computer - without MY computer. I can access e-mail from any of the other machines in the house. I can browse the web from any other computer here. But I need MY computer. In this place. With all of its comfortable familiarity.
I need to divorce myself from my unholy alliance with this device, but I don't know how to begin. I need it to be a tool. Not a friend. Not something I think I'll die without. Any ideas?