Thursday, September 15, 2005

Musings: Cognitive and Emotional Dissonance

Mike's dad's funeral is tomorrow morning and I feel just terrible for Mike and his family. I still have both my mom and dad and can't imagine what Mike's going through. Though I never met his dad I feel as sad at his passing as I was when my own grandparents passed away. I've always felt with much depth of emotion John Donne's immortal, "...any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls - it tolls for thee." The older I get, the more keen the edge on those words becomes.

Despite the somberness of this whole week for us, Mike wants to keep the date we'd planned for tonight. As he said it - tomorrow will be about death; tonight he'd like to celebrate life, and being with us in our usual way is one of the best ways to do it. I understand him entirely. A few years ago one of my closest uncles died and all I wanted to do for a few days afterwards was to cum - to spray my "life fluid" all over the place as if I could somehow ensure my own immortality by making my dick squirt as much as I could manage to get myself off. I'm glad Mike's coming up; we would like to have seen him anyway, even if it wouldn't have been with all of our clothes off, just to be with him after the awful week it's been.

Tonight too we will meet Tyler for the first time. That was all up in the air after we found out about Mike's dad, but Mike wanted to keep everything as we'd planned it so we left the invitation to Tyler standing. He'll be the first guy who never asked if he could join us on a "date night." We asked him. He wrote to us so sincerely about his own marriage and some of the things he'd like to try with his wife. Mike, Dee, and I all took an instant shine to him, and we all thought that he'd fit in so well with us that we asked him if he'd like to make love with Dee while his wife's still thinking about opening their marriage to various pleasurable possibilities. Until a few days ago, he wasn't sure and he planned to join us this evening just to meet us and to see what one of our sharing evenings is like. As of our mails and chats in the past few days, though, I think he's ready for some of Dee's special brand of naked extramarital sweetness.

I talked to Dee a little while ago and she said her pussy's dripping in anticipation of the evening's festivities. Tyler said his heart's been pounding all day from the excitement. I'm personally longing for that moment when Dee opens his zipper and reaches inside for his cock for the very first time. I love those electric first moments when Dee meets a new lover. They have a particular flavor of intense excitement for me that little else can match.

As always, I'll be looking forward to putting on a little show and tell in the days ahead, so keep your usual channels tuned in if you're interested.

1 comment:

Mac said...

Well, I don't know Mike but I have neither of my parents left. It is something that you can't prepare for really no matter their age or yours. It is an event that takes something out of you that will never, ever be replaced. I'm sorry Mike. You have my deepest sympathy. I've been there and I know what if feels like. You will make if through it all and I trust that you had your Dad for a long while and will always have wonderful memories of him. Regards, Mac